It’s easy to talk about problems, trials, testing, and suffering when one is well and healthy. It’s easy to make a stand what one belief with regard to sickness, diseases, and suffering when one is in a pink of health. It’s no fun when one is put in a situation that is not positive.
Questions pop up in my mind when I discovered that my wife had a growth in her right lung. The X-ray showed a patch, the CT Scan confirmed a growth, and the next step is to do a biopsy test. All these procedures really test my endurance, really play havoc in my mind, and really cause a lot of consternation within my spirit. I think my wife is calmer than me. I know she is a woman of faith. She gets people to pray for her and she’ll be praying to God for her healing. That I am very sure of!
I am not blaming God for all this troubles in my home. I am certainly NOT – not even an iota of it. He is a good God and he will take care of us. But I can’t get rid of the feeling of sadness, of confusion, and of uncertainty. Maybe, I am one of those who find it extremely difficult to have my life shifted, even momentarily, due to crisis in the family. I don’t like things to hit me in the face and getting caught off guard. But seriously speaking, would I be alright if I had known what was coming earlier? I doubt so too!
Nothing is so simple in life. I wish that we can go through life smoothly, at least, for me and my family! Rather selfish, isn’t it? I have to activate my purpose statement once again: In whatsoever state I am in therewith to be content. It’s time for me to once again believe that for myself and for my wife. It’s time to trust in him and to cling on to his grace. The PROMISES of God is YES and AMEN. Paul said so. The Word of God is true – can I believe it? More so, can I trust God who made the promise?
Lord, help me to be contented in you; not to buckle under the weight of a trial, not to despair over bad news, and not to give in to depression BUT to rise up and called you blessed. I chose to believe that in Christ all things with pan out eventually. I believe therefore help my unbelief!